Post by Tony Mino on Aug 25, 2015 5:48:26 GMT
Guys,
I thought that I would give you an update on my situation. Tomorrow is the day that we are moving my Grandmother into an Alzheimer's care facility. These last few weeks have been particularly rough on me as I have had to come to terms with not only the change in my Grandmother's life and living situation, but my life and my living situation as well. For the last seven and a half years my identity has been wrapped up in being a caregiver for her. I have been there for her through thick and thin; through doctor's appointments and ER visits; through those days that I used to make her laugh and through those dark days when she would call me a "son of a bitch." The worst day, one which happened not too long ago, was when she couldn't remember my name and would refer to me as "the stranger in the other room." It's only appropriate that I am here for her last day in her own home. Obviously it's far from the end of her life, but it's the end of a chapter of both of our lives. I would be a boldfaced liar if I said that I didn't have more than one emotional meltdown tonight--something that is completely out of character for me--but the truth is that I needed it, and I probably still need it. I'm not entirely sure how I'm going to feel tomorrow afternoon...more than anything I just hope that I can hold it together while we say our temporary goodbyes.
At any rate...yesterday and today my family has set up her room in such a way to make it as familiar to her as possible. Although it will never be home for her, I hope that she will at least be comfortable.
Here is the link to my instagram account if you're interested in seeing some of the pictures that I have taken lately. I kind of wish that I would have started doing this a while back, but alas...I didn't.
I doubt that I will make a return this season, but I am really pushing to get back into the saddle next season. Start with a clean slate so to speak.
I thought that I would give you an update on my situation. Tomorrow is the day that we are moving my Grandmother into an Alzheimer's care facility. These last few weeks have been particularly rough on me as I have had to come to terms with not only the change in my Grandmother's life and living situation, but my life and my living situation as well. For the last seven and a half years my identity has been wrapped up in being a caregiver for her. I have been there for her through thick and thin; through doctor's appointments and ER visits; through those days that I used to make her laugh and through those dark days when she would call me a "son of a bitch." The worst day, one which happened not too long ago, was when she couldn't remember my name and would refer to me as "the stranger in the other room." It's only appropriate that I am here for her last day in her own home. Obviously it's far from the end of her life, but it's the end of a chapter of both of our lives. I would be a boldfaced liar if I said that I didn't have more than one emotional meltdown tonight--something that is completely out of character for me--but the truth is that I needed it, and I probably still need it. I'm not entirely sure how I'm going to feel tomorrow afternoon...more than anything I just hope that I can hold it together while we say our temporary goodbyes.
At any rate...yesterday and today my family has set up her room in such a way to make it as familiar to her as possible. Although it will never be home for her, I hope that she will at least be comfortable.
Here is the link to my instagram account if you're interested in seeing some of the pictures that I have taken lately. I kind of wish that I would have started doing this a while back, but alas...I didn't.
I doubt that I will make a return this season, but I am really pushing to get back into the saddle next season. Start with a clean slate so to speak.
